Y'all. I can't believe it has been so long since I have blogged! Chris has been encouraging me to post an update since so much has happened in the past 4 months. I have gotten a bit sidetracked since Chris and I found out I am PREGNANT!! Naturally, we wanted to wait to see what this meant for the adoption and whether we'd be able to stay right where we are in the process or go on hold and resume after biological baby beck is born. More on that later....
Many people don't know this, but we started trying to get pregnant as soon as we officially began the adoption process in March. After deciding on adoption, we had the mindset of being eager to start the next chapter in our lives and expand our family. We knew the process could end up being very long so we wanted to go ahead and begin trying for a biological child.
Fast forward to September. I was home in Atlanta for my sister's wedding. I went ahead of Chris to be able to hang out with my family for longer than a weekend and to help with last minute wedding preparation. The weekend before my sister Alexis' wedding, I had zero symptoms, but decided to take a pregnancy test out of the blue. For the last 5 months, each test had been negative, so taking the test had become a "glass half empty" routine for me and I just stopped expecting a positive result. Needless to say, I was wonderfully shocked when I saw TWO pink lines. Two solid pink lines. I couldn't believe my eyes. I am not a crier, but the happy tears were uncontrollably flowing. Chris was still in Alaska and had gone camping by himself with our dog, Buddy for the weekend. It was 9am my time and 5am his time, but I couldn't help but call him instantly. After he fully woke up and was able to understand what I was saying through my uncontrolled breathing, he was thrilled. After that news, he was definitely up for the day and managed to capture this sunrise at Lake Louise in Alaska. It's a beautiful memory of the day we found out our lives would be amazingly changed forever.
At that moment, the previous 5 months of waiting and wondering why didn't bother me anymore and I felt silly for so quickly losing faith in becoming pregnant. Some people wait years to get pregnant! I knew in my heart that God timed this whole thing out perfectly and was trying to teach me a big lesson in trust. Noted. I just wish I had realized it sooner.
So starting in May (maybe sooner) life is going to look a bit different for us, but we could not be more thrilled. After the baby is born, we will resume the adoption process and prepare to add yet another member to our family! Meanwhile, we are still trying to figure out what we can do to maintain our adoption progress and not lose that fire. We finished our home study in November, but eventually, we will have to get it amended to add our new family member! I'm definitely glad we will get some parenting practice in before then. Don't get me wrong... most days, I'm terrified about becoming a mom and know that I will definitely be making mistakes and learning as I go. However, I am confident that God will equip me along the way and won't ever leave us hanging.